Wednesday, August 28, 2013



di libray tengah tepu dengan revision untuk dua test dalam satu hari. using 360 camera. tapi sekarang dah uninstall. sebab terasa cam fake dia punya flawlessnya.

kan biasa, bila dah nak habis cuti mewah meriah and happening,
baru lah terasa,
"oh sekejapppppnyaaaa cuti kitaaa kenn"
"ohhh nak tambahh lagi cuti, mau extend! mau extend!!!!!!!!!"

oh itu biasa melanda. ehek.
for me lah, selalu jaa rasa benda tu.
and dah beli tiket 4 hb kot! class start 9hb kot!
tu pasal sebab ingat ada program 5hb. so bergegas mahu pulang semata mahu bagi support.
tapi tak menjadii pulak, kita sedih. tapi terima ja.

last entry ada buat short-list pasal benda yang nak dilunaskan time cuti cuti riang.
nampaknya hanya beberapa yang menjadi.
maybe dek tetiba takdak mood nak buat shortfilm.
videonya ada. tapi entah. tak terasa nak mengedit.
atau mungin kerana terkelubung dengan kegembiraan sampai rasa,
main dengan adik. qada' tidur yang lepas and busy dengan tv.

berhenti sat.
tapi kan, tetiba rasa untuk part 3, semangat nak balik arau cam membara.
i dunno why. lah kan. maybe perasaan nak balik zaman belajar.
zaman beraktifan dengan program sampai penatnyaaa. waduh.
tapi semuanya indah belaka. walaupun tipulah kalau tak terselit dengan benda yang tak best.
yang tak best tolak tepi!!!!
spread the positivity.

itu sahaja dari saya.


Thursday, June 27, 2013



hi dears, earthling, darlingssssssssss and etc,

done with two final papers yooo!!
so, so..
what should i do right now,
revision pon next paper,
not in mood, hehe.

so, blogging is the right way to spill everything!

2 months holiday after this final exam,
i've plan to do a lot of things,

this is the list,
and i hope i can do these things and using my holiday wisely, :))

1.a short film (theme humanisme and friendship) insyaAllah
but i have to borrow HD video cam from my friend.
emmm, for a better quality of image.

2. a sharing-session program with my primary school student, SKPNZ.
including second reunion program for our batch. insyaAllah.
paper work and intitation letters to ex-schoolmates especially who lived outside from Terengganu.

3. write a short-story (Malay version)

4. work in nursery field with my friend as a part-time job

5. renew my driving license.

6. try to get motorcycle license during this holiday.

the list is unlimited. i want to spend my holiday with useful things.
and if i need to be a part of theater team, i have to go back earlier! :')

that's all.thank you for reading. ehh??


Saturday, June 22, 2013



please be strong girl, be strong . be strong ain.
face the reality.
sometimes i feel the weakest feeling in myself.
i cant do anything.
nothing at all!
i hate that feeling,

yeahh. im human.
cant ignore the mistake anymore.
it makes me suffering inside.
tough inside is not a good word for me.
i fell. get up and move on!
im trying guys. im trying.
for sure, outside i look tough. hahhaa.
i cant stand to show my weakest condition to others.
so, my emotionless face help me to hide all those silly things happen in me.

and today, a good news for me from my biggie sis, biggie pon boleh kan, X)
she told me about my video.
my first ever short-film for arabic class.
for me it's not really a short-film.
more to video project.
i hope the message in that video is beneficial for myself and us.

i dont really spread the video in my social site,
coz one of my friends in our video dont really like me to post the video in fb.
so, what to do,
i just upload the video in my youtube account.
i hope she cant find it. X)

my first intention when i have to direct the video is
i dont want to do because of it is one of my assignments
i have set my mind to this for our goodness.
thats why i have put a lot of efforts in this video.
dubbing session,
learning all those editing tutorial to make this video look smooth.
and easy to watch. even im not good enough in editing.

im going to suggest you rewan ishak's short film.
he is a really good director.
i've fallen in love with his work even i stil cant watch KIL movie.
no time. poor me

i have watched a lot of short films
learning, how they can make a really lovely video.
burn midnight oil. lack of sleep. sacrifice my one week holiday.

ahhh!! and after i have burn the video and submit it to my lecturer one week earlier.
the feeling, worth yoo!!!!!!!!
alhamdulillah. :))

that's all for today, ceceh.

p/s : my groupmates, aina and fatin. they work hard for our video folio and me doing this video. specialization is a good thing when we're doing group work.

Sunday, June 16, 2013



nothing much to write.

sometimes, honestly. i have double split personalty. say whatt!!

it just a comparison, if you know me well.

im not into craving for popularity or what meleis say, 'mencapab'
im too shy to post my self-cam pictures.
too shy to post my 'poyoness' pictures with friends. *hahha. sebenarnya banyak ja dalam phone.
too shy to update any status or my daily activity.
too shy to express my feeling every seconds in twitter or fb.
too shy to talk in social world, ehh? hahhaa.
too shy to talk about jiwangness in public, X)
a lot of things of 'too shy' in my social networking life.
even a lot of people doing the same thing.
but im not into that activity, i dunno why. don't ask me.

coz of my shyness in social world. i rarely update all those things bout myself.
ahak! awkwardddd!!
maybe for now lahh kot.

and i ever talk to myself, am i weird?

my blog will be in private mode
however i'm not going  to adjust the setting,
just let the blog live without people noticing its existence.
for now. forever? i can't promise.

that's all for today. :))

p/s : u cant see my blog's link anymore in any social site. hehee, coz i have erased it just now.

Saturday, June 8, 2013



a really really short update, *short lah sangat. X)

*meowwww is tired

waiting for my first payperrrr!! on 26th june 2013,
really makes me crazy.

plus with a lot of assignment, yeahhhhh.
and im in progress to add 2 more minutes for my video final project for
3rd languange subject.

im really enjoying doing this and sometimes,
it really put me in critical stress condition.
doe with shooting. and script as well.

one of the scenes, in our first video final project. the yellow book. it is the symbolic for 'people-can-change'.

so, i hope this video,
even the quality  is not really good enough
coz we don't have dslr or hd video cam
but, wit a lil message that we try to make people understand,
to study other language is not easy,
and another message about judgemental.

fatin, me and aina. working together for this video. it is just a simple video. please don't expect too much. :))

Do not judge people based on their past.
past is past. enough said.

ya Allah, ya Rabb, please ease everything. 

im now busy preparing for a dinner show
this show really put me in stress too, hahha
coz, me and other teather members (degree members)
all of us are newbieeee!!!! :'(

seniorita, they want to watch our first newbie show!
and im dying here. *nervous

Enactus Malaysia Competition,
makes me fully exhausted. even we acts as the observer.
a lot of things need to be prepared plus, some of internal problems.

that's all for today. ahakk. this is just a lil story to reduce my stress.

(surah al-Qasas : 56)
*do read this people, :))

p/s : i need to continue my works. exhaustedddddddddd!!! kbye.

Tuesday, May 28, 2013



okeh, with a lil free time today,
i want to continue my story about 'that' part,
yeahhh. the most tragic part for me as a newbie
am i the only one who think it is tragic? maybe..*facepalm

credit to: selly yulhendri instagram, my theater seniorita. she is busying with le telemovie, kuboq panjang for RTM. and she is one of the talents in Nyonya Cantik theater, see how talented she is, :))

let say, if you love to do something.
or you think you have prepared for it,
even it is not really good enough
but at least you have put some efforts on that thing,
seriously you will fell like a loser,
when something you dont really like happen!
without any warning or hint. it just happen. *blink blink

yeahhh, the day before the show,
after zohor, some of PD members and me take a nap,
we sleep in changing room for a while,
a lot of things need to be prepared for TANAH show,

this is my first time i see how they build up the prop, like a genius! if u see Pelantaq theater from saifol bahari, you will be amazed, fan-like prop. i named it just now, hehhe

after taking our nap, i open my mouth to ask what time is,
then, i realise something. i cant speak.
i have no voice,
unfortunately, the day before the show!!!

i try to drink a lot of water, about 2 big-sized mineral bottle,
nothing happen, my voice is still the same.

so, i start to walk away from people in the hall
who are busying with the prop
move outside the hall,
then sit on a bench, alone. tears down..
i hope no one can see me in that condition, especially Pak Man

me and nono, on the last day of TANAH! waiting for post mortem session at 12.30 am
*the reason for the eyebags, sleepless

*tap tap tap
i hear nono and kay are walking towards me,
and they ask?

"ain, what happen?"

i want to say nothing,
and i realise how can i say nothing with my red eyes, and sneezing, hahaa

so, i tell them everything, yeahh everything.
of course they can detect what is the problem now,
because i am talking with rough and slow voice.
plus with the tears, :')

Pentas Digma's family. this is the picture during theater internal camp specialised for members only.
im enjoying my holiday on that time, weee!!

i dunno who has reported my condition to the other members,
but one of my seniorita, kak selly comes to see me,
she asks me what happen.
i cant tell her.
i just cant..

then, kak shifaa too,
she dont come closer. because she says,

"budak ni, kalau datang pujuk, lagi kuat menangis nyaa"

i laugh with that statement. so trueeeee!! :))
a few minutes later, some of PD members also come too see me,

i was like, "oit, sapa punya pasal bagitau semua orang ni"

afique (le singer and guitarist), haziq ( the strict seniorita) , me and nono.

the man in black from the picture above, his name is Haziq,
i am going to write a lil bit bout him,
if you still remember from the past entry,
yeahh, he is the ones who gives me the order to go for theater camp!
blame him!

i give give a big respect to him,
he spend almost of his student life for theater,
plus having fun with his friends

no wonder, he ever won as the best actor
and also one of the talents in Nyonya Cantik,
theater that i have accidentally watched for good, :))
he will do anything that he wants
even sometimes people cant accept the way he works,
mainstream enough, hahha

done with haziq's story.

amirul, the president, he buys 2 bottles of asam jawa juice.
to ensure i can have my voice back.
then, i drink the juices, my voice is better.
but , still not very loud and strong enough for the show.

the talents who involve with the show, they dont use mic.
we use our own voice, and we have to speak loudly,
that's the problem.
i can speak. but with low range of voice.

then the problem goes to the first day of TANAH show...*horror movie song

 the old me, 30-an with le classmates and nono

on that morning, i go to class. the show starts on 8.30 pm.
no excuse for me to skip my class,
le classmates, they ask me the price of the ticket,
how to go there and more questions are waiting.
so i tell them everything using my 'ella' voice, :PP

then, they ask me how can i perform with my voice
the only answer i can give to them
just wait and see..
honestly, i also dunno whether i can perform or not.

le classmates, they come for the theater, :')) with afique and enchot

one of them, buys me asam jawa that our moms always use it for cooks.
the pure asam jawa, not asam jawa juice!
i have to mix the asam jawa with water and drink it!!
seriously, im not going to drink asam jawa anymore after the show.

alhamdulillah, two days of TANAH show,
my voice becomes better and better.
even i cant use my natural voice during the show.

thanks to back-stage people. they put three stand microphones on hidden spots.
so the audience cant see them. hahaa
i just have to move closer to the hidden mics
and speak like nothing's wrong

that's all, the story behind the scenes, :)
this is my first time with theater club,
the experience gives me a lot of meaning
i hope i can learn more about how the production works,
especially back-stage management. yeahh.
not just acting.

this is asam jawa. i have tried it twice, pure asam jawa!! it is good for your voice, seriously

p/s : no more asam jawa , except asam pedas,

salam, jzzk.

Monday, May 27, 2013



what im studying right now,
like i said before. more to calculating and critical thinking.
so, i choose to create a piece of art.

im not seeking for popularity or to impress people.
the one-and-only reason is i love art so much!!!
to balance the ability of both parts. maybe. eheh. :)) * please refer to the picture above

creativity is something that you have to do and experienced it by yourselves.
keep calm and love arts. haha

drawing? creative writing? poem?short film? public speaking? theater? dancing?
there are many options for you.

after facing two auditions with Pentas Digma club,
alhamdulillah, i am one of the members.
however, a big task is ready for me! *runnnnnnnn!!!

Manisah, one of the main characters in 'TANAH'.
and i have to play the character with a lot of emotions.
this is my first theater!
can u imagine how ruined my life after hearing this shocking news! *slowly dying

my first thought is I only need to learn how the production works. thats all!
yeahh. im a newbie.
what can you expect from a new member with zero knowledge about theater.

and the story begins...

in the middle of FINAL FEVER WEEKS!
i have to practise when some of my friends are enjoying their fullest study moment,
a short sem break for me,
and i have to do some researches by watching a few of  theater performances.

i get inspired to join theater club because of ROH

my ex-roomate arin, yeahh. she has brought me to watch this Nyonya Cantik theater.
so, i have accidentally watched this theater for good, :))

i go to watch this by myself with my ex-pc friend, Dayah. she is asked to join me watching this theater by hook or by crook as she is studying ACCA in Shah Alam X)

these are all the list of theaters that i ever watched!

err, before my first performance in TANAH,
I know nothing!
so, i get inspired by watching their performances.
and try to learn their acting skill,
learning from others, before you want to do something new. hehee

if you want to compare all those lil things with my senioritaa, 
they sacrifice a lot to this club more than what i can think.
when i said sacrifice, yes, i really mean it.

no wonder ahh, they are really talented
and always at the peak of art spirit!
from the director, talents, stage management,
make-up artist, back-stage people.
I learned a lot of things, not just acting.
one of them is how to handle negative comments and judgemental people.

my director, Pak Man. yeahh he is a nice man. but when it comes to judging session.
he is really serious.

honestly, i never get any positive comment from him.
emotionless is the most crucial problem for talents.

and yeahhh. im having that problem. 
because sometimes i am an emotionless person. like a zombie. 
my friends always said that to me. trust me!

i am asked to join a theater camp
or should i call it as an order from my seniorita.
no turning back and i cant say 'NO'. poor me.
maybe to avoid any harm happen during 'TANAH' show caused by my emotionless prob. hehe.

seriously i don't have any knowledge what is theater about.
so, i accept the challenge.
lucky me, two of my seniorita..they also come along.

we learn about voice projection, technical thingy (errr, so technically)
how to project our body language, and the most interesting part is
'trolling-your-partner' session!!
i dunno what is the name of the session. hahha.
after all, i love the camp!! :))

Pentas Digma's family

then, the day before the show.. the most tragic part for me. 
to be continued in the next entry. * erk, actually i have something else to do

p/s : i hope no PD members will read this. maluuuu oit!



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